Call me greedy, but I want it all, I do.
The perfect job, the amazing house, the wonderful husband, beautiful children, great friends, good body... the list goes on.
Don't get me wrong, I am very lucky. I have amazing parents that still shelter and feed me for a small monthly fee, amazing friends, I have had a very successful week at work and am also currently being interviewed for some pretty good jobs roles too as I am looking to move on soon, and I am happy with my body, there's a few things I could change here and there but overall I'm confident to get naked in front of most people.
However, there is still that one thing missing.... my love life.
I am not an unhappy single, but I am still hung up on the Lobster. Even though he is a big knob head.... with no knob.
In a previous post I explained how I was feeling after learning he is seeing someone, and it has been playing on my mind ever since, even more so since I discovered the girl is married.
Yup, that's right. MARRIED!!
He is seeing a married woman!
I am a social media stalker, I saw the photos of her in her wedding dress only a few months ago.
I don't know the situation well enough to judge but still.... Call me old fashioned but for me, thats the dream, to get married, have babies, make a home.
I understand its not for everyone and sometimes these things don't work out... But thats my Lobster :(
I am a bag of mixed emotions and contradictions at the moment.
I need to keep on remembering him for the arsehole he is and all the bad times.
It just seems when one area of your life is going fucking fantastic, other parts can be terribly shitty.
So can we really have it all or is it just a wonder woman myth?